2013

How do I put this down in words. My love if ever you are being directed to read this page, it prolly means that we are no longer together and I am no longer around. Knowing you three years ago changes my life, to the world I can say that it is for the better. But do you ever consider that to put yourself in my shoes. Changes are things that we can't make effective overnight. Do you know that it hurts .. Real bad.. To be celebrating a three year anniversary with someone who puts you down for almost e whole day. Please don't give me the crap about not planning.. Because never has it been successful for me to plan out anything.. In case you hadnt notice, since our first trip, I stopped planning ... Ever occurred to you why ?? Because while you say it's anything.. But you don't want it at the same time. You are tired you don't wan to plan. How about me ??? For someone who plans program for a living.. It's natural but we also don't want to plan in our personal time. It's just madness. Try asking a chef to cook after working time. Or not to comment on cooking matters.. I do things that makes you happy. But ever occurred that you have not done any ?? Sorry but yes none.. Anything anything anything .. Tt is the best you say to me. But I choose something u get pissed or you prefer another thing. 我真的很累了， 我真的想长眠。。。。