A Visit to the Doctor

Just left the chiropractic clinic about 2 hours ago.

Bad news and more bad news...

i am only 28 and yet my spine is like a 60 yr old.

the bill is crazily high ... 2773 bucks for 48 sessions and 4 additional x rays.

ooh yeah i dunno how the fuck to react man seriously its a nightmare..

according to my x ray results my C-spine area is arching in the opposite direction and bone spurs are starting form. by my own estimation i should likely be facing operation within 3 years if i do not go thru with the treatment. to make matters worse my slip disc area is also in a very bad shape if things does go "well" i am ready to purchase a wheelchair soon.

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履行另一个人愿望, 是象您还自己一样.

i have decided that i will try to follow this statement. thou it is not something amazing or profound but i believe it cause its just the same as 'one can find joy when he helps others".

A step back into the past and back

its a little bit funny this feeling inside... i 'm not one of those guys who can easily hide his feelings inside...

Sitting here after a day of hard work... dunno how many Mid Autumn Festival has passed...

I looked back at my life

fell for a girl when i was nineteen and oh well she is the only one i could not and have not been able to contact till now... the songs are really true to its core... LOVE HURTS

Fell for a girl this year after stepping back into school life as a full-timer.

honestly i am pissed off at what seemed to have probably worked out well got screwed up by a jackass and a bitch. but then again i am kinda thankful for the both of them for they gave me a chance to know 2 good and i would say close friends from student council.

They are not inclusive of my orientation group mates who have been more than a pillar of support for this old man trying to fit into the crowd.

I did everything i could and possibly within my means to show her i like her apart from saying it out direct.

Vibes back is hollow and has no other resounding effect apart from the ice cold words of "forget it man" what's gone is gone .., it aint coming back...

and so i learnt to give up and let go ...