deep thoughts

today i told my kai ma (she is the one from scouting and yes i have alot of kaima).

i look not for the moment but for the future.

i give not to pass the day but to survive the lifetime.

we were discussing about a possibility to start a non profit organisation in china. and i felt that if we were to start up something for the countryside kids.

we should look at providing some things for the kids - giving a form of education be it academic or sports.

even if its some thing i cant give for my enternal life.

leaving Singapore Island Country Club

People who knows me well enough.

will know that i love kids and teaching swimming.

teaching swimming has always been something close to my heart. being able to play and teach the kids a new skill is something that i have always treasured no matter how mischievous or irritating they can be.

It really pains me to make the decision today to leave the club, to leave coaching of swimming.

but i need to be realistic too, i cannot stay on at a place where there is no decent respect for a coach who have dedicated his time and effort to teach.

Even right now, as i am typing this blog it hurts me deep inside to have left the students in the lurch. it is really never been part of my intention to throw the kids away.

My dear students, please forgive me, your coach.

Expedition to Kranji Dam

This was a crazy and problematic session. correction its 2 sessions

I went to JBAC for kayaking session with NYJC yesterday.

I was informed only the night before by the boatman that we were possibly chaperoning the students who might be attempting to go to the causeway and that they are all NOOB. It was totally scary to think about it man.

but lucky in the morning, the teacher told us that oh they have decided not to go so far. PHew...

they were crawling slow...

The afternoon session were not anywhere beta BUT we tried KAYAK SURFING

haha

it was the real crazy fun.

imagine you are sitted in your kayak and the speedboat towed you. the feeling was great, superb and hell i am still feeling the high of it.

to think of it if not for lending my camera to my sister. arghz i would have posted the photo here.

CRAZY SHIT but HELLUVA FUN ...

Rowing and Paddling

Its been a sweet 3 weeks.

honestly, I think no one can say that they love the water more than I do. It was totally fun for me, too fun.

I was teaching 1 star kayaking @ Changi Coast and Kallang. well its mostly at Kallang using boats that are antique in a way. hehe

of cos there was the sessions of orientation with the students and teachers who were nothing less than a bundle of joy.

And of course, the 2 days of basic helmsman course which i cleared with MUCH EFFORT. The effort was to learn how to row as nice as the competitive rowers which i am no where near with their standards.

but i believe i should be able handle the next upcoming course - recreational coaching for dragonboating this coming weekend. thanks to meishan and allson.

oh yes people reading may be wondering who are these 2 fellas rite.

Meishan - my friend from Bukit Timah YEC and she is into dragonboating with an open team (PALS) and allson - Team Captain for PALS. he corrected my strokes and at the same time welcomed me into the team to be part of them.

A Visit to the Doctor

Just left the chiropractic clinic about 2 hours ago.

Bad news and more bad news...

i am only 28 and yet my spine is like a 60 yr old.

the bill is crazily high ... 2773 bucks for 48 sessions and 4 additional x rays.

ooh yeah i dunno how the fuck to react man seriously its a nightmare..

according to my x ray results my C-spine area is arching in the opposite direction and bone spurs are starting form. by my own estimation i should likely be facing operation within 3 years if i do not go thru with the treatment. to make matters worse my slip disc area is also in a very bad shape if things does go "well" i am ready to purchase a wheelchair soon.

random

履行另一个人愿望, 是象您还自己一样.

i have decided that i will try to follow this statement. thou it is not something amazing or profound but i believe it cause its just the same as 'one can find joy when he helps others".

A step back into the past and back

its a little bit funny this feeling inside... i 'm not one of those guys who can easily hide his feelings inside...

Sitting here after a day of hard work... dunno how many Mid Autumn Festival has passed...

I looked back at my life

fell for a girl when i was nineteen and oh well she is the only one i could not and have not been able to contact till now... the songs are really true to its core... LOVE HURTS

Fell for a girl this year after stepping back into school life as a full-timer.

honestly i am pissed off at what seemed to have probably worked out well got screwed up by a jackass and a bitch. but then again i am kinda thankful for the both of them for they gave me a chance to know 2 good and i would say close friends from student council.

They are not inclusive of my orientation group mates who have been more than a pillar of support for this old man trying to fit into the crowd.

I did everything i could and possibly within my means to show her i like her apart from saying it out direct.

Vibes back is hollow and has no other resounding effect apart from the ice cold words of "forget it man" what's gone is gone .., it aint coming back...

and so i learnt to give up and let go ...