2013

How do I put this down in words. My love if ever you are being directed to read this page, it prolly means that we are no longer together and I am no longer around. Knowing you three years ago changes my life, to the world I can say that it is for the better. But do you ever consider that to put yourself in my shoes. Changes are things that we can't make effective overnight. Do you know that it hurts .. Real bad.. To be celebrating a three year anniversary with someone who puts you down for almost e whole day. Please don't give me the crap about not planning.. Because never has it been successful for me to plan out anything.. In case you hadnt notice, since our first trip, I stopped planning ... Ever occurred to you why ?? Because while you say it's anything.. But you don't want it at the same time. You are tired you don't wan to plan. How about me ??? For someone who plans program for a living.. It's natural but we also don't want to plan in our personal time. It's just madness. Try asking a chef to cook after working time. Or not to comment on cooking matters.. I do things that makes you happy. But ever occurred that you have not done any ?? Sorry but yes none.. Anything anything anything .. Tt is the best you say to me. But I choose something u get pissed or you prefer another thing. 我真的很累了， 我真的想长眠。。。。

problems

its been almost 1 week since things have turned ugly.

Since last wednesday night, where i tried to settle the office rental amicably with the landlord.

i had to close off the office as operations was just myself and that the company does not have the funding to carry on renting the place.

he rented to me at $1,100 mthly.

he took my company roc details and was to have informed the hdb about him subletting the unit.

in his words, there is only 2 options for me.

A) to find another person to takeover the rental

B) to carry on renting the place from him.

i am amazed at the fact that while he commented himself to be a gentleman and that when we do things as a businessman we must follow law by law. but this is the shocking information i received from hdb. he did not apply or inform hdb at all.

And from him, he stills maintains that he has informed me that he did not inform hdb in regards to renting me the place. next when i mentioned that the agreement has not be signed cos i have not seen it. he mention last time was that oh i submitted information to the lawyer and that i will get it done for you as soon as possible.

And now from him, he denied ever telling me that he has done such matters ie; submitting the information to the lawyers.

which means to say by all records its illegal and its not a agreeable issue. how do i account for it as a businessman? and how do i even get another person to takeover ?

he made it clear that night that i played him out and he will take action.

at the present moment, i have not made the police report because i am not sure what is the nxt best course of action to be taken without harming the relations between me and his son.

up to the present moment, his son has gone thru facebook chat to ask me how am i going to settle and if i am gg to compensate his dad 3mths of rental and pay up the remaining amount. he has tried to call me which i did not pick up the phone (31st January 2011 2 calls) and 6 calls plus an sms ( 1st February 2011) .

i cannot see how do i pay up if they have changed the locks and wants the following as a form of compensation.

1. the partitions to be relinquish to them

2. the air conditioning to be relinquish to them

3. 3mths of rental

4. pay up the january rental

5. lastly to pay the utilities bills (to which i do not have the records at all)

my problems

Of late problems seems to arise like nobody business. I seem to have hit a brick wall.
First is the company, chong nyen left the company and threw everything into my hands. Had to clean his ass for him and ben also give more worse problems. Somehow its very strange the monthly rental and stuff can nvr seem to be settled.
Jus few days ago, i received a call from the client that a project has been confirmed shock and pleased. But chong nyen and ben submitted this project without my knowledgr and top it off a project that we can handle but not financially.
Begged and pleaded with ppl for help and finally i got 3.5k i. Funding but here comes the next problem i still needed another half. Fucking hell.
Call ben last night told him the problems and that he need to stand out and settle. Kind of bad and cruel of me to push him to the edge no choice but its the fact of life.
He came out with the 3.5k upon me forcing it down his throat made him give up his last yr allowances for his unsatisfactory job done. Seems harsh and it hurts me for doin so but no choice.

Bb volunteer.to lend me the money initially to tide over the project. But knowing that she herself has problems of her own too i decided not to even use it. Had to resort to forcing ben. She seems very upset that i did not take up her help. But i really cant bear to do tt to her. Finances of the company is quite direct. Client pay moneys comes in but its drags you see.

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3months

Its been three months... Its not short but i must say time really pass darn quickly.
Everytime i see her i known tt my listening skills are close to zero and my sensitiveness isnt any better. I try my best i honestly do. Because somehow or rather i can tell that my gf has not stolen my heart but just melted away whatever that is negative and has been fillin in with positiveness.
I am really glad to have courted her and won her over.
Today we went for dinner and caught a movie.
Oddly i was lost in thinkin wat to do as usual. But once i got on the train i knew instinctively that watching a movie will be meaningful to a certain extent. Our first date was watchin step up 3, yes i kissed her in the cinema. Today i brought her to watch rapunzel. Hearing her laughter, brought me much joy. Oh well i guess jurong point is gg to stay as a significant part of my life.

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distractions in life....

Its true that to ucceed you need to have no distractions. It is inveitable that one will have tons of it. Its jus how to step away from it. Will there be a saviour for my soul. I want to concentrate to finish up my studies but. The heavy burden of the school fees is killin. I wan to make my company a success but the results are so limited. Personal load of poor financial planning. I want to let my gf have a easy life but den again its soo toturing. I cant seem to have anythin easy.
Why o why

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my girlfriend

Knowing her changed me.
From one who loves the bottle to one who does not drink.
From one who chain smokes all the time to one who smokes once or twice a week.
From one who blast off immediately to one who really curbs the temper.
From one who does not think twice on splurgin to one who uses a spreadsheet to count and check for the cheapest price available.
I dunno why i dunno how and why.... Perhaps like the tv shows... Love changes everything...

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wat a day...

And it was supposed to be a special day....
Erm i am the guy in the rs but yet i am feelin tt i am being treated like a rag doll...
Come on. . I am not the one who hurt you... Why treat me so..

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